I even eat when I Sleep!

I dreamt of McDonalds French Fries and Coca Cola last night. Two of my favorite things. How sad is that.... But once I woke up and realized I was dreaming about my obsession with food, it just gave me that much more determination! So I started my day off with a bowl of oatmeal and a big glass of water. I'd rather be eating a bagel overflowing with cream cheese but I know that's not a wise choice for me. That's how I got here in the first place right? After breakfast I did a mini workout consisting of 10 crunches, 40 leg lifts, and and 20 squats. Now I realize this is nothing to someone who excersizes regularly. But for me, this is huge! Instead of feeling worn out and grumpy like I figured I would, I felt great! I felt really "awake" and alive and I was so proud of myself. I even called my hubby at work to tell him about it.
I worked from home for a few hours then I had to get ready for an appointment with a friend. She is getting married next year and I'm going to be one of her bridesmaids. Her color choice for the bridesmaids dresses is a Candy Apple Red. I hate red on me but hey, it's her wedding so I just have to deal with it. But I fear that if I don't loose enough weight by the wedding that when I go to walk down the eisle, someone is gonna yell "KOOLAID".... Remember the old kool aid commercial where the huge Red Kool Aid Man comes busting thru a wall? Well that's gonna be me if I don't get in gear. I watched all these beautiful girls trying on their size 6 or 8 dresses in awe. I want to be like that. There was one girl in particular that had me mesmerized. She walked in wearing black yoga pants with knee high UGG boots and an oversized black sweater on. She was tall, blond with carmel highlights and had an amazing figure. She took off her sweater and handed it to her Mother so she could go start trying on dresses and I almost fell off my chair. She had on grey T shirt that exposed her midriff. Her stomach was flat as a pan cake! WOW! She was absolutely stunning. And then when she came out in her first gown I got all teary eyed. Not because she was going to be such a beautiful bride or because her dress was so pretty, but because I realized that if I want it bad enough and work my butt of to do it, that I COULD be like her. But it's gonna be hell on earth getting there. I know what I have to do and what I need to do. But for now I just need to stay focused and stop dreaming about French Fries......