Saturday, March 5, 2011
Numb....
I have alot going on right now. Nothing's wrong with me and my hubby, we're great. But it involves certain people in our lives. And their causing some major stress on us. And do you know what happens when I get stressed? I EAT! And eat. And eat. I swore I would never do that again, (this time around). But I know and admit that I have a pattern of doing it. I just can't screw up this time! I've been doing SO good lately. But the situation is just getting worse. And all I want to do is go crawl in my bed with a tub of Blue Bell Birthday Cake Ice Cream and watch movies all day. I guess I am "trying" to act like what's going on around me isn't really happening. But it is, and it's killing me inside. I can't really divuldge too many details because the people this involves could possibly read this. Just know that I need some serious motivation right now to get my head back on straight. I haven't went on any "binge" yet but I feel it coming. UGH. Why do I do this to myself and let what other people do bring me down.....
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stay strong girl. no amount of other people's drama is worth getting in the way oF YOUR goal
ReplyDeleteBig Hugs-this post rings true for me sometimes too. And not being able to blog about it bites!!
ReplyDeleteJust remember, you hold the power! You'll be more pissed if you binge. I hope it all blows over soon.
I've been struggling a lot lately, too. I think everyone hits a point in their lifestyle change when they begin to remember how good and easy our old habits were. Just keep in mind that it takes time to form new habits (our old ones weren't formed in a day, that's for sure!) so keep at it! You CAN do it. You've done it this far! Don't be afraid to succeed and become a better you!
ReplyDeleteI will be praying for your determination and motivation. Just remember to take care of yourself, and don't be too hard on yourself if you need a break every now and again. A treat doesn't have to be a binge!
You shouldn't binge because UMMMMMMM....you are WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY better then the bs that is going on around you!!! Your way better then the piece of crap doing it to you!!! BECAUSE You don't deserve this bs and all it entails. And the most important part is that the ONLY person who can take care of Julie is Julie! Walk away from that bs because it aint your cross to bear and because I love you way more then you love binge eating!!
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